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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Randomly Random Monday...

Hi people! I haven't posted much lately..and in a few minutes...you'll know why.

First Random Thought-

My brother(s) in law and sister(s) in law and I don't really get along. Okay, actually it's one brother and his wife, that HATES me but the other 2 just acknowledges me because I'm married. (Long Story for another time) But, nothing makes me any madder, than sending a birthday card and gifts, christmas gifts, anniversary gifts and get NO, NONE, ZERO, ZILCH acknowlegment that we even sent the DAMN things! I think it's rude and insensitive..and one day when I get a backbone...no more presents from me!

Second Random Thought-

I am so freakin' tired. Good Lord am I tired. For the past week I can do nothing but sleep. My sleep schedule lately is..
2am until 8am-sleeping
8am-10am- awake
10am-2pm- fighting the tiredness
2pm-4pm- sleeping
4pm-6pm- awake
6pm-2am- fighting the tiredness

I am too tired to clean, cook, shop, talk on the phone, even watch my favorite shows. I don't know if it's something hormonally going on (whispers) cause my boobs hurt too...or if its the high dosage of Amoxil I am on (1800mg a day) but this is killing me!

Third Random Thought-

I wish my mom would stop sending stuff to me about adopting children overseas. With all the drs, and fertility treatments I have gone through...we don't have the $15,000 for adoption. Have yall heard of the phrase..Tapped out? Thats our checking account at this point. And our savings account? I refuse to touch, we may need it when we are old!

Fourth Random Thought-

Is it weird to find my hubby totally HOTTT when he is exercising at night?

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 4:45 PM

Sunday, February 26, 2006
New Kids On The Block Rocks!

Ok, we all know I listen to strange stuff. Sir Mix Alot? Well, Babys Got Back...and I love to "Bust A Move" because I have the "Right Stuff" and for those who thinks I don't well I can be "Ice Ice Baby"...but in the meantime.."Lets Talk About Sex" Okay, those are a few songs I listen to while I am fixing my hair and makeup in the bathroom (because I am cool like that) And I won't lie, I have a copy of the CD in my car too.

Anyway, today we were driving to Columbia, SC to meet some friends for breakfast (2 hr. drive for eggs! Yumm! NOT) So, Mr. was getting ready in the bathroom and I walk in..and what did I see??

Him DANCING and SINGING to New Kids On The Block's Right Stuff! Man O Man...if only I had my digital camera.

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 11:57 AM

Thursday, February 23, 2006
Better Now...

Sorry for flippin out yesterday..I guess everyone has days like that. I hope everyone forgives me and not think I'm some sort of nutcase. Moving on now....

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 10:48 AM

Wednesday, February 22, 2006
You Know What I Want?

*WARNING* I am a mess tonight...depressed and crying...so you can either skip this and read..your choice!

You know what I want? I want to go back to the first week of our marriage. Why you ask? Because during our first week we were married everything was perfect. No bills, no responsibilities..nothing. I didn't have high blood pressure or diabetes. Mr. didn't have high blood pressure or high cholesterol. We were both 30-50 lbs lighter. We were happy. We didn't want children at that time. I had no idea what PCOS was. I never knew what it felt like to hear the dr. to say you were pregnant. I never knew what it felt like to go through a miscarriage..twice. I didn't know we would ever argue.

Through the 4 years we have been together has been really rough. We have gone through alot of things together and I guess that means alot. No, I KNOW that means alot. Mr. is my best friend...someone I can always count on. Of course, I wonder did he know what he was getting into? Did he know I was going to be sick? Did he know I would never have his children? Did he know we would be having sick parents? Sometimes I feel he should just walk away and never look back at all our troubles. I wish things were different.

I know people tell me that you have to deal with what you care given. But why was I given this? What did I do? As I sit here tonight, I can't hear in one ear, hormones are all over the place, glucose levels are going bonkers and all I can do is cry.


All he can do is rub my back and let me cry and tell me he could have never picked a better friend.

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 11:21 PM

5 Magic Words...

I heard the most beautiful words today..wanna know what they are??

It's not gonna last forever

Yep, thats what my dr. told me about my hearing loss! Somehow the cut on my eardrum wasnt healing quick (could have something to do with me having diabetes) And through all of this there is MAJOR fluid backup in my ear. So, after he saw that he wanted to make sure my sinus' were okay..so he sprayed stuff up my nose.

Um..I dont pick my nose for a reason..I don't like stuff UP my nose!

He left the room and came back in 10 minutes later and said..

Dr: Is your nose numb?

Me: No.

Dr: Is your teeth numb?

Me: Nope, why should they be?

Dr: Well in most cases the medicine I sprayed in your nose numbs people...

Me: (interrupting) Um..if you are going to cause me pain, you might want to spray some more..I can wait! (saying this with a panic look on my face.

Dr: Nah, you SHOULD be fine

Then he pulled this HUGE wire thing out with a lightbulb on the end and sent it up my nose and down my throat. I. Thought. I. Was. Going. To. Die.

So, after everything was said and done. I still have a small opening on my eardrum and because of that the fluid my eardrum has retracted back into my ear (reason why I can't hear) So, he gave me some meds to get rid of the fluid hopefully..I see him in 10 days. If the fluid is NOT gone then he will have to go back in my ear and CUT a piece of my eardrum to drain the fluid. I am SO praying the fluid goes away...that numbing stuff he has..SUCKS!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 12:02 PM

Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Hoping For Good News...

Tomorrow at 9am I have my appointment with the Ears,Nose,Throat doctor. It has been a very difficult 2 weeks. I still can't hear in my right ear, at all. I am very embarrassed to go out in public because if there is ANY background noise at all, I can't hear what people are saying. So, I have been staying in my house which is really depressing. I am hoping I get some sort of good new tomorrow...but since it's been 2 weeks without any hearing..I don't see it getting better..but I have been wrong many times before! So, I will update when I know something...please keep me and my ear in your thoughts tomorrow!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 9:48 PM

Monday, February 20, 2006
Why Doesn't He Tell Me These Things?!?!

My husband gets up every morning at 4:20 and he's ALWAYS out the door by 5:15 so he can beat the traffice onto the nuclear site. This morning I woke up at 6am and he was still sleeping! I freaked! I started screaming and jumped out of bed, telling him to get up he's late and I will fix his breakfast while he gets dressed. Hurry! Hurry! Hurry! I was like a mad woman! I ran to the kitchen..ok I walked really fast...and I started making toast and poured his orange juice. Finally, he walked in and said...

"Todays is Presidents Day, I'm off."

He never told me. We usually go to Charleston or Savannah when he has a long weekend..but he never said anything! So, we went back to bed and left everything in the kitchen...man it was nice to sleep in with him this morning.

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 11:26 AM

Sunday, February 19, 2006
Good Grief...

All day today, my glucose level has been over 200! Normally, it's always under 90 except when I eat, but it comes right back down.

This. Is. Not. Making. Me. Happy.

At. All.

Last time my glucose levels were like this, I was pregnant, it happened twice. I am 99 percent sure that I'm not pregnant, and if I am it's not a good sign because they feel like that's why I miscarry. (glucose levels going too high)

Since, I am fairly sure it's not pregnancy, the only other thing I can think of is infection. I do hope something isn't going on in my ear that is making my glucose levels bonkers...good grief!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 6:02 PM


I found something out tonight I didn't know about myself...when a woman comes and asks MY husband to dance, I always thought I would let it be known he's MY husband...but instead? I laugh and take pictures!

bleh 017

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 1:41 AM

Lookie Lookie!

Most People Has This In Their Yard...
We Have This....

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 1:32 AM

I Am Too Old For This..

I have been to 2 parties in 2 days...BLEH! I feel so tired! Ten years ago, I would have been still looking for more parties to go to and now? I just want my fair share of the bed!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 1:31 AM

Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Check This Out...

I find this very disturbing for some reason...yet, I couldn't turn it off! Picture Elmo and Black Eyed Peas and then...

Click on This!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 5:27 PM

Back From The Dr's Office

Well, ladies and gents, it's not good. She took a look in my ear, and the eardrum she saw last week all shriveled up, it's no longer there. NOT. THERE. Well, I asked her where did it go, and she really didn't have an answer for me. As far as my ear and side of my face feeling numb around my ear, I probably caused nerve damage. So, when I asked her if my hearing would come back, she wouldn't answer me..she just said I needed to talk to the ENT Dr.

Im sitting here in tears, what if it doesnt come back? Am I going to have to spend the rest of my life with numbness and loss of hearing? The only think I can hear is my voice echoing..nothing else.

Today, I switched from CVS over to Walmart for my prescriptions, mainly because mother-in-law works in the pharmacy and she can just bring home my prescriptions, yes, I am that lazy. Anyway, the woman was talking to me and I just walked off...I swear to God I didn't even hear her talking to me. After my mother-in-law told her what was wrong, she wasn't as offended...see? my worst fear is coming true..already!

Off to my own pity party..yall want to come? bring the cake!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 4:17 PM

I Don't Scare Easily...Until Now

I haven't told anyone about this for the following reasons:

1- It's a little embarrassing
2- Thought it would go away

After surviving an abusive first marriage, several miscarriages, many broken bones and multiple stiches and staples..I'm not one to worry or be scared easily. Until now, I haven't been scared but I am now.

Two weeks ago, I came home Friday night from drinking a little, ok maybe more than a little, and my ear was itching. I was thinking it could be sinus problems, since I have been having them off and on since Thanksgiving, but I took a qtip to try and clean out my ear. Bad, Bad idea! I don't know how far down I went but I woke up Saturday morning with the worst pain! So, I whined around most of the day taking tylenol over and over and over. Pain was still there and then Sat. night I lost my hearing! Lost it! So, sugarpuss decided I needed to go to the ER, which normally I am totally against, but the loss of hearing and the pain convinced me to go. After waiting several hours, I was told I had cut my eardrum and it was bruised too. When I asked the ER doctor if my hearing will come back, she told me "it should" but you might want to see your dr. on Monday. So, I saw my dr. on monday and she said my eardrum looks awful, and gave me some eardrops for infection. She also said if my hearing doesn't come back to call her. So, last Thursday I was still deaf, so I went to see her. This time she said the cut was healing nicely BUT she said where the average persons eardrum is smooth like saran wrap mine is like crumpled up paper. NOT GOOD! So, she told me to keep up with the eardrops and said hopefully it will fix itself. When asked about my hearing I was told "im not sure if it will come back..but it should" So, I am on my way to see her again today. Its been 2 weeks and I am totally deaf in my right hear. She said more than likely she will refer me to a ENT doctor. So, I am scared to death that my hearing won't come back! The pain is gone but the constant embarrassment so constantly saying "Huh?" is getting to me! Wish me luck!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 1:28 PM

Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Screaming + Valentines = Feeling Guilty

One of my gifts that Sugarpuss gave me was a scent stories player by Febreeze. We plugged it in and it started blowing the scent out...he kept picking it up and looking at it...I tried to ignore him.

Sugarpuss: It's not working.

Me: Yes it is..smell it?

Sugarpuss: It's not making any noise.

Me: Yes it is..hear the fan blowing?

Sugarpuss: When does the music start?

Me: (Ignoring the stupid question)

Sugarpuss: I think we need to return it.

Me: (still ignoring him, but loving the smell)

Sugarpuss: What songs are on the disc and when does it start playing music?

Me: Oh good God! It doesn't play music...it plays scents.

Sugarpuss: As in the same damn thing that's in all those bottles we have in the cabinet?

Me: You got it!

Sugarpuss: So, where is the music?

OK, I married a nuclear engineer, but somehow he still hasn't grasped this thing. Poor boy, is still waiting on the music to start! Wonder when he's gonna figure it out??

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 7:53 PM

From My Valentine

This is from the man that I love. We have been together 4 years and I always feel safe when he's around. When he holds my hand it makes me feel positively cherished. I still get butterflies when I hear his voice on the phone and he tells me "I love you, be home soon". When we kiss my heart beats as fast as it did with our first kiss, and many times when I glance his way, I feel the thrill of falling in love with him all over again. He is the reason I feel like a princess. Thanks for 4 wonderful years, sugarpuss! Happy Valentines Day!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 10:18 AM

Monday, February 13, 2006
Random Randomness....

First I want to tell you what my husband did...last week while at work (he should have been working) he downloaded Kenny Rogers- Through The Years song, burned it on a CD and mailed it to me. I received it today while he was at work. He's wonderful. Period.
I had to drive to Columbia, SC to drop my mom off and coming back into town this is what i saw..
A house in the middle of the road. It fell OFF the trailer! OFF! Man, when someone gets home from work today, they are gonna be PISSED when they see their house in the middle of the road.
I am embarrassed to say I listen to the new song Honky Tony Badonkadonk..how someone could come out with a song like that is beyond me..but whats more embarrassing, I know every word to the song and dance to it. (Of course I liked Achy Breaky Heart and the Macarana, too)
Valentines shopping is done, and yet again, I did not get my Happy Valentines Day cards sent out..so for all the family and friends reading this...HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 6:30 PM

Saturday, February 11, 2006
Shave And A Haircut...Two Bits...

Okay, it was more of a wax and a haircut..but whatever.

I decided to get my haircut yesterday and Carla took off about 4-5 inches..and when I was walking out I was very proud of my hair..it was cute. Even, last night as we were sitting around with some friends, they all complimented my hair, it felt nice.

My hair yesterday I was loving..this morning? Not so much.

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 10:55 AM

Thursday, February 09, 2006
Please Play With Me...

Thought this one was kind of interesting….YOU fill in the blanks about ME even if you dont have any idea what they are and send it back to ME. But first post a blank one out to all your friends so they can return the favor to you. Be honest. Just copy and paste in the comment section.

Don't make me look like that chubby kid in school nobody would play with!

My name:

Where did we meet:

Take a stab at my middle name:

How long have you known me:

When is the last time that we saw each other:

Do I smoke:

Do I drink:

When is my birthday:

What was your first impression of upon meeting me:

Do I have any siblings:

What’s one of my favorite things to do:

Am I funny:

What’s my favorite type of music:

What is the best feature about me:

Am I shy or outgoing:

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:

Do I have any special talents:

Would you consider me a friend/good friend:

Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):

What is a memory we have once had:

Have you ever hugged me:

Do you miss me…do you think i miss you:

How well do u know me?

What is my favorite food:

Have you ever had a crush on me:

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:

What’s your favorite memory of me:

Who do I like right now:

What is my worst habit:

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring?

Who are my favorite sports teams?

What was the last thing I said to you?

Will you repost this so I can do it for you?

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 6:21 PM

A Proud Mom

Back when Mikey and Molli were puppies..we entered them in obedience school..and after 2 sessions they were kicked out of the class...

Obedience School Teacher: "I just don't think your "kids" are a good fit in this school"
Me: "No, my "kids" are just 2 kool 4 skool. "
Mr. TSB: *dies of embarrassment*

Now with that being said...Here are their new shirts...

2kool4school 008
Mikey is to ashamed to face the camera!
2kool4school 002
Molli, not hiding, because she is proud to be the first in the family to be kicked out of school. She's a rebel like that!
2kool4school 001
"Wait a second, you're blogging this? I was just pretending to be 2 kool 4 skool! What if Rin Tin Tin or Air Bud reads this? Mighty Dog will think we are wussy! Oh God, you don't know Lassie, do you? Please don't blog this"

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 10:47 AM

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

I Grabbed This Off Someones Blog (Can't Remember Who, But Thank Ya!)

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4: "be for you, Big Red or Juicy Fruit?"

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can and see what you touch: Molli's (my dog) head

3.What is the last thing you watched on TV? Young and the Restless

4.Without looking, guess what time it is: 2:00 pm

5.Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 1:48 Pm

6.With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? Boondocks by Little Big Town

7.When did you last step outside? What were you doing? This morning, getting the paper

8.Before you started this survey, what did you look at? Canasta Tourney Page

9.What are you wearing? Jeans, blue/white pinstripe shirt, white sock, gold earrings, wedding rings

10.Did you dream last night? If I did, I dont remember.

11. When did you last laugh? Last night, thanks to Tasha and her "shield" idea

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? corkboard (which is holding pictures and calender), family pictures, poster of University of Pittsburgh and our diplomas

13. Seen anything weird lately? No, not really

14. What do you think of this quiz? It's different

15. What is the last film you saw? With Six You Get Eggroll

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? Not sure, but would pay off the house and cars

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know. I used to be a clogger (been to many competitions)

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? Probably best I keep this to myself

19. Do you like to dance? Like to? Not really, too fat and lazy now

20.George Bush: WARNING: Your response is being monitored! Listen up, Bushie

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Her Name would be Anna Marie

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Aiden Michael

23. Would you ever consider living abroad? Heck No

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? "Wow, how did you get here?"

25. 4 people who must also do this meme in THEIR journal: Anyone who wants to waste three minutes. Knock yourselves out :)

Well, that was fun. What's next?? hehe

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 1:43 PM

Tuesday, February 07, 2006
My Hearts All A Flutter...

The 5 men in my life.....Unfortunately only 2 of them are aware it!
Meet My First Man
paul walker
Paul Walker...His Eyes...His Teeth...*Swoons*
Second Up
toby keith
Toby Keith..His Eyes..His Voice..His Attitude...*Yummy*
Matthew McConaughey....Enough said!
My Love
molli 004
Mikey Doodle..His eyes..His whimpers..*heart melts*
My Lover
Mr. TSB..His eyes..His Teeth..His Heart..His Understanding...His Forgiveness...His Undying Love For Me Makes My Heart Melt Everytime He Looks At Me
Although Mr. knows I love him with all my heart and I love him with everything in me..there is an understanding that if any of the top 3 men beckons me..I'm on the next flight out of here..He said thats fine as long as I am willing and able to tell him I love him after I am gone. He says it makes him feel whole...Oh and send money! *bleh* A man after my own heart!
P.S. By the way..if you haven't noticed..I have a "thing" for teeth!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 1:42 AM

Monday, February 06, 2006
Chef Mrs. TSB...

Guess what I am doing today? Nope! Guess again. No way! Okay, game over, I'll tell ya! I am making the best damn pound cake..ever! I have a friend that is having a birthday today and she loves this cake, and being the nice friend I am...She's gonna get it! I love finding recipes..easy ones. If yall want to share your favorite recipe...drop a comment!


1 cup butter, softened
1/2 cup shortening
3 cups sugar
5 eggs
3 and 1/4 cups sifted cake flour
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 cup milk
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 teaspoon lemon extract
1 teaspoon rum flavoring
1 teaspoon coconut flavoring
Glaze (recipe follows)

Cream butter and shortening;gradually add sugar, beating well at medium speed of an electric mixer (I recommend this one) Add eggs, one at a time, beating after each addition.

Combine flour, baking powder, and salt; add to creamed mixture alternately with milk, beginning and ending with flour mixture. Mix after each addition. Stir in flavorings. Pour batter into a greased and floured 10-inch tube pan. Bake at 325 for 1hour and 30 minutes or until a wooden pick inserted in center comes out clean. Cool cake in pan 10 minutes; remove from pan, and cool on wire rack.

Spoon hot glaze over warm cake. Cool completely.


1/2 cup sugar
1/3 cup water
1/2 teaspoon almond extract

Combine sugar and water in a small saucepan; bring to a boil. Remove from heat; add almond extract.

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 12:35 PM

Sunday, February 05, 2006
Steelers Win..

*whispers* Yeah, Well, He's A Poopy Head!

WTG Steelers..Job Well Done!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 10:17 PM

For Sale: 36 year old pouter

I hate Super Bowls. Hate? Yep! Hate! Normally every year Mr.TSB and I cheer for the same team, simply because I never really know who is playing, and couldnt care less.


This year. HIS Steelers are playing! HIS! HIS! Somehow, he can always squeeze in the fact HIS Steelers are playing in the Super Bowl in any conversation. For example...

Normal Human: Today has been really bad. I have been sick for a week.
HIM: Oh yeah? Too bad. Know whats good? MY Steelers are playing in the Super Bowl.

Normal Human: I think I want a bowl of chicken noodle soup for lunch! MMMMM!
HIM: Speaking of bowls of soup..MY Steelers are playing in the Super Bowl! MMMMMMM!

The list can go on and on. For 2 days now he was worn black and gold. Right now he has on a Steelers sweatshirt and hat. For all the steeler fans, sounds great right? Wrong!

This year I decided I was going to cheer on the Seahawks! Why? Good question! Because this is their first time to the super bowl and because I am cool and all...I feel the deserve the trophy (they do win trophys right?)

HE called me a stupidhead and is secretly hoping that they get stomped! *sighs* Let the game begin.......

See the pants? They have M&Ms on them...now whos the stupidhead?huh?

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 6:16 PM

Saturday, February 04, 2006
The Results Of My Determination...

All week I did the following...

1. Ate 1000 or LESS a day
2. Only had water
3. Exercised AT LEAST 30 minutes a day
4. Took all my medicines on time

The final results when I saw the dr. on Friday?

You ready??

Drum Roll Please!

I GAINED 4 pounds!!

Yep, that sucks...and I am PISSED!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 4:36 PM

I'm a SAHM to 3 girls. We became foster parents in May 2006 in hopes of adoption. We love our girls and could never picture ourselves without them. Although life is much busier, we couldn't be any happier. Here's our story...