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Sunday, January 29, 2006
*Ding Ding Ding* Let's Get Ready To Rumbleeeeeeeeeee!!

Well, today I woke up determined. Determined to do what? Great question, glad you asked! I'll tell you..

1. I am determined to start putting myself first. (That includes, rest when I need to rest, take my medicines when I need to take them (not forgetting them because I am busy doing something else), Exercising every morning (even its a little ride on the stationary bicycle), Eating when I need to eat, the list can go on and on..you get the point.

2. I am determined to drop some of this weight I have been carrying around for WAY TOO LONG!

3. I am determined to drink water, and no more caffeine. Period.

4. I am determined to keep my glucose levels under control.

5. I am determined to drop my blood pressure medications.

6. I am determined to get pregnant this year. AND BE ABLE TO CARRY IT. (3 miscarriages just sucks)

7. I am determined to make a better wife and better friend.

I hope I can really stick to this, and so far my determination is strong. For some reason, when I woke up this morning, something was different... almost strange. Here's to a happy, healthy beginning...

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 8:42 PM

Whew..I'm back!

Somehow the week slipped right by and I didn't even notice! There has been some crazy things going on around here that keeps me busy. Right now I am getting ready to go walking..in the rain..because I need to walk (and lets face it, nothings any hotter than a fat girl, soaked by the rain, huffing and puffing around the block, right?) Here's some things going on around here...

My mother-in-law thinks I'm having an affair! Yep! She has flipped her lid! Because I go out every Friday night, usually without Mr. TSB (by his choice), she assumes I'm dating someone. LOL And of course the day she confronts me about it, I wasn't wearing my "rings" and she wanted to know where they were. "When you are married, you are supposed to have on your wedding rings, AT ALL TIMES" is what I was told. Bleh! As much as I love my rings, and they are BEE. YOU. TEE. FULL. I don't think it's a necessary accessory when going to the grocery store.

My husband, he is a geek. I was watching Beauty and the Geek and I was thinking to myself, my god, I married a geek. Is that a bad thing? Nah, I think he is wonderful, kind and understanding. He is very smart, and can figure out things that live me very confused. How come he doesn't know he's a geek? Denial? Or really doesn't see it? Growing up, he was a dungeon master (I have NO idea what that is, but he talked like it was important) and he never went out and "partied" like I did, he said he stayed at home and studied. The clothing style he had, pre-Mrs. TSB, was unbelievable! Let's face it, he just received some "cool" points marrying me. See, I told you he was smart!

Wanda died. The very first fish, we bought when we moved into this house, died yesterday. Somehow, it felt odd crying over a fish, but I did. It was probably more of the fact, when we got her, and what it meant more than the fish itself.

We are trying to make Valentines Day plans. I have no idea what we are going to do. I know there is a party the Friday night before Valentines Day and I am going to try and talk Mr. into going with me. If not, I can go by myself and pout in the corner!

Oh, one more thing, I am just not getting to the "Thanks for the Christmas presents, and Happy New Year" cards. Yep, I suck!

Have a good one...ya'll come now, hear?

wanda 002
R.I.P. My Fish Named Wanda

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 10:47 AM

Monday, January 23, 2006
My Diet? It Doesn't Exist...

Well, folks, I was supposed to start my new "lifestyle" after my dads party. Well, it didn't happen. SURPRISE!

Since we have been back, we have eaten at Outback, Mi Ranchos, Applebees, Chilis, Chinese restaurant, McDonalds (more times than I would like to admit), and Sonics.

See up there?? ^^^ That's why I am fat! I love healthy foods. Steamed veggies, salads, chicken, fish..all that jazz..LOVE IT. But, and yeah there's always a but, I hate going to the grocery store. Once the food is here, Mr TSB and I hit the kitchen and both cook..but we have nothing in the house. The last time I went to the grocery store was before Christmas and that was just to buy gingerbread supplies!

For the last week I have been telling Mr. that I was going to the grocery store, I never get there! So, today when he calls from work I am going to see if he can meet me there. Then tomorrow...I will start...

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 3:30 PM

Thursday, January 19, 2006
Randomness...(if only it's a word)

Well, the reality shows have started...

American Idol rocks! I tried to secretly watch it but I just can't help myself..I love it! Mr. TSB is starting to enjoy it (even though he would never admit it). When the people say.."Oh yes, I CAN be the next American Idol, I am THE best singer in THE ENTIRE WORLD"...you better believe they can't sing and will sound like cats getting smashed by truck tires! In the past some of the people that has won, I didn't feel deserved it, but who am I to judge. One things for sure though...

There is NO WAY I would stand outside for 2 days in the rain, snow, heat, cold, or wind for me to meet Simon Cowell and him tell me I'm fat and can't sing. Nope, No Way Jose, I'm not that crazy!

Then I was secretly gonna watch Stars on Ice, or whatever it's called, but Beauty and the Geek started tonight. OMG that show is awesome! I love geeks! Hell, I married one!

I wish I had TiVo, but we have satellite and when my parents had DVR (same as TiVo) installed they had to run another line under the house and all that jazz...Isn't there something like TiVo that just plugs in?!?!?!?!?!

Reality Shows That I LOVE You Need To Check Out: (Do as I say! I am the Reality Show Princess!)

American Idol
Beauty and the Geek 2
Cowboy U
Dog the Bounty Hunter
Family Plots
Dancing with the Stars
What Not To Wear (where do they find these people??)
The Biggest Loser
Roller Girls

See?? I soooooo need TiVo...or a life...whatever!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 12:44 AM

Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Just Like The Boy On 'Home Alone'

Man, for the first time since Thanksgiving I am home alone. Mr TSB went back to work, parents are back in NC, friends and family is back doing what they do best...so here I sit. *crickets chirping*

Molli (my furry baby) has barked every 5 seconds at EVERY. LITTLE. NOISE. I swear to you she barks at birds flapping their wings, the grass growing, or dust settling! It can, and is, very annoying..but I heart her anyway!

I have been sitting around thinking today, since it's so hard for me to do when the house is full of chaos. I need ya'lls opinion on something. Here goes...

Back in 1995 or 1996 (can't remember) I got married. It only lasted a year and a half and we seperated on Christmas Eve and finally divorced the following May. May 16th to be exact..man, what a glorious day that was. (And NOT because that was the day he decided to marry my best friend) I was glad to be away from him. He was very abusive and I spent most of our married time in hospitals with accidents (Thinking back they must have thought I was a lush or something, or maybe they knew and just couldn't say anything until I admitted to it) Anyhoo, getting off subject and I can tell ya'll are getting bored.

In August 2001, I met Mr. TSB and we got married in Decemeber 2001. So, after being married 4 years is it wrong that he knows NOTHING about my ex husband? I mean he knows I was married before, but doesn't know his name, where he lives, how long we were married, how long we dated...nothing.

I have been out and about in NC with Mr. TSB and I have seen my exhusband and/or ex in-laws and I never said anything to Mr. TSB. I prefer to keep that past in the past. Mr. never asks questions and I feel he is very content without knowing, but I feel I am being secretive. Am I? It's not a secret if he doesn't ask, right?

See what happens when I am home alone?? Oh and BTW, the radio has been turning off and on all day by itself....damn alien ghost! Man, I can't wait for Mr. TSB to be home!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 5:13 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006
First Things First...

The party was good. Dad was TOTALLY surprised...which was awesome! We started decorating around 9am and was frantically finishing around 3 so we could get dressed. The 500 balloons? Didn't happen...but we had enough to make it look nice. Several people that RSVP'd saying they were coming didn't come, which in my opinion is extremely rude. There has never been a time I RSVP'd and didn't show up. So we were left with ALOT of food and cupcakes, but still had a good turn out. By the time I got home that night, I crashed and slept in on Sunday.
Now, today I have been very grumpy. VERY. I have screamed at Mr TSB more times than I can count, I hung up on my dad AND my mom. I screamed at the Papa Johns woman. I have cried for hours. I really don't know what's wrong with me, except maybe just pure exhaustion.

Nothing seems to be going right, money is tight and I'm not getting enough hours at work. December and January is always hard months for us financially. ALWAYS. and it sucks ass.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better for me and everyone around me. Hopefully, I can go to the grocery store tomorrow, seeing how I want to start a diet and the only things we have to eat here is leftover cupcakes and chips. Which I'm thinking maybe that's why I am so damn ill today, I haven't taken my insulin in days because I didn't want to have to worry about my sugar dropping too low because I haven't had time to eat, and all I have been eating for like a week now is junk food.

God, I hope tomorrow is brighter!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 9:15 PM

I Survived...

........Barely. Just got home and unpacking. Will give details soon.

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 4:27 PM

Saturday, January 14, 2006
I'm Going To Crash....Eventually!

It's Saturday morning about 2:30am and I'm at my parents house. Everyone is asleep....except me! I have been WIDE AWAKE SINCE 2am! I am so nervous/excited about this party happening today that I cant sleep. I've gotten many phone calls in the last 2 days and everyone I have talked to seems real excited about the party and I hope I don't let them down. Yesterday my dad was talking to his best friend of 40+ years (the one that is getting him to the party) and they made plans for today and dad said there shouldn't be a problem going out today because even though its his birthday he doesn't like a big deal made about it....Ummm...big deal being made today HAHAHA We are heading over to the clubhouse at 8am to get started decorating and I have assigned jobs for some people (mom and grandma) to get the cupcakes and stuff while I stay there.

We picked up the helium tank yesterday that is supposed to blow up 550 balloons but I have 600...What's the chances I can blow up 600??? I'm even nervous about that...as if someone is say..."Oh My God, she only blew up 550 balloons not 600, what I loser!" Ack..I can hear it in my head!

Hopefully, soon after the party I can get some pictures posted so those that care can take a look. Time to see what I can do about sleeping! See ya!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 3:26 AM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006
They Think I'm Nuts....

Let me start off by saying I am the type of person I don't believe in something unless you can prove it. Ask my husband what he hears me say the most, the answer will be.."Oh yeah? Prove it!"

But, for once in my life I believe in something so much that it is very frustrating that NOBODY believes me! GGRRR!!

Ready for this? My. House. Is. Haunted.

Gasping right? Thinking I'm nuts right? Wrong! I am convinced!

In all of my windows in the house I have those battery operated candles, here in Aiken a lot of people keep them in their windows year around, it means welcome. Of course I don't welcome everyone to the house, but I do think it's pretty. Anyhoo...in my window in the bathroom there is a candle. It is a huge window that is about the jacuzzi and to get to the window you would have to step INTO the jacuzzi to reach the candle. One night I went to the bathroom and was brushing my teeth and I always feel someone is watching me (very weird feeling) so I was looking around and noticed the light bulb in the candle was sitting BESIDE the candlestick. I thought to myself, why in the hell would Mr. TSB do that..because let's face it..I wouldn't do it and nobody else is here.

So, once he came to bed I asked him why he would do that and he said he didn't. Well, someone had to! My puppy, Molli, sees things we never see. She will start growling at NOTHING and is normally looking at something that isn't there.

For months I have been trying to convince Mr. TSB that there are ghost here, and have been trying to convince my family..but they think I'm nuts! But, they will sit back and say strange things happen around here. My mom hears bells jingling, so she sleeps with the tv on now (lol) and I keep catching Mr.TSB checking the candles in the windows. But my dad? He's not budging. He says I'm crazy and it's my imagination. My imagination doesn't unscrew light bulbs and lays them beside the candlestick. Nope..no way, jose...my imagination is about as lazy as I am.

My dad believe in aliens, which I don't..but hey maybe I can convince him of an alien ghost? Now there's a thought!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 11:40 PM

Happy De-Lurking Week!

It's that time of year for all the lurkers to stop and say, "Hello" or "Hi" or "Hey" or "Aloha" or "Ola" or "Bonjour"...you get the point.

Most people read blogs and never leave comments (I am very guilty of that) Sometimes you don't know what to say or know if you should say anything at all...well of course you should! So, every blog you read this week, leave a comment and show you love 'em! Now, go show me some love..leave a comment!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 9:41 AM

Leaving Wednesday...

...and I am still waiting on packages to arrive for the party. Talk about time crunch! I did receive a phone call last name from one of people I invited and she said my party is the only thing people are talking about! Woohoo! My party is all the buzz with the 50+ year old men!!! (*giggles*)

I really do hope the party goes as planned..and you know I will post pictures from the party..but for now I need to go wait for packages!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 8:40 AM

Monday, January 09, 2006

I was tagged by Deb...Thanks Deb! (You're my first *wink)

Four things:

4 Jobs youve had in your life:


4 movies you would watch over and over:

How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days (Matthew is HOT)
Joyride (Paul Walker is HOT)
Annie (The original)
Trapped (excellent movie)

4 places youve lived:

Charlotte, NC
Fayetteville, NC
Aiken, SC
Carey, NC

4 tv shows you love to watch:

Young and the Restless
ALL Reality shows
Martha Stewart

4 places youve been on vacation:

Gatlinburg, TN
Myrtle Beach, SC
Knoxville, KY
Asheville, NC
(sucky places but I am afraid to fly)

4 websites you visit daily:
Random Blogs

4 of your favorite foods:

Chicken and Broccoli (chinese)
Steak Burrito (mexican)
Mac and Cheese

4 places you’d rather be right now:

Anywhere but here
Moms house
On a cruise to anywhere

4 bloggers you are tagging:

Unfortunately I have nobody to tag :(

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 1:02 AM

Saturday, January 07, 2006
My Grandpa The Saint

My maternal grandpa is a Saint. Period. He is the greatest man I have ever met and if you had the chance to meet him, you would walk away feeling the same way. He's 78 years old, never missed a day of Church, never said a bad word and has worked hard all his life.

As a child I remember him working for the water department for the city and I remember visiting him and seeing these huge "pools" of water...man I loved that place! But, when I was 12 years old he started having problems. He started forgetting things, you would say something to him and he would just have this blank stare while you could practically see his brain trying to register what you said. Just seemed a connection piece was missing. My grandma took him to the doctor and the doctor said it was beginning stages of alzheimers. Well, not what my grandma wanted to hear, but she accepted it but told the dr. she wanted more test ran. Well, after a week of scans and testing the found a tumor on his brain. It had embedded so far into the brain it was the size of a grapefruit. How the he survived still fascinates the dr. So, he was told about the tumor and was ordered to the hospital for a surgery 4 hours later.

Coming out of the surgery the dr. said he would probably not survive over 5-6 years. That was 17 years ago. We were also told that he may turn violent. Which he never changed. He had to learn to read again, walk again, he was just like a child and you could see the innocence in him.

Down through the years he has helped so many people that we could never keep count. He will always there to help financially, physically, or emotionally. The reason I write about MY Saint...my grandma called to tell me this...

My grandpa owns several houses that he rents out for very cheap. He finds out how much the couple can afford and that's how much he charges...which really helps some people. But, a man that has recently moved in next door to him is disabled. Money is tight and he's struggling. The man came and paid his rent (75.00/month) and was telling grandpa about the trouble he is having. My grandpa left and went and bought him groceries, his medicine for the month and filled his car with gas. The guy wasn't expecting it and my grandpa expects nothing in return. His motto is..he is wealthy with love and support from family and friends..and why not share the wealth.

He has always believed in "Help those, that helps themselves" and he has a place in heaven and I hope I make it to heaven to spend eternity with him..because just being around him makes you feel like a better person!

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 11:36 AM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Why Do I Torture Myself??

Well, as if Thanksgiving and Christmas AND New Years wasn't enough. I am still trying to plan a surprise birthday party. My dads birthday is next weekend (13th) and we are having the party on Saturday. Somehow when this started it sounded fun and exciting. But...

$1,800.00 and 150 RSVPs later...

It's not fun. I am stressed and panicing. I have ordered many many things that hasn't arrived yet. Nothing seems to be coming together, so I just have a pile of STUFF that will be taken with me to NC and hope it all adds up to a fun time. I put myself in the position where I worry what people will think..will they think its good enough? does it look childish? does it look cheap? could I have done better?

I know my dad will enjoy it and really that's all that matters. TRULY.

I'm having a DJ and karaoke there and was hoping to have trivia throughout the night but I can't seem to find trivia questions. It's a 50s-60s theme party, so if anyone knows where I can get some questions or anything that may help..or better ideas for fun...let me know :)

link | posted by Mrs. TSB at 6:07 PM

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