Wednesday, November 30, 2005
It's A Boy!
Today, I got a phone call. It was a girl I work with, since I don't like using real names, we will call her Ms. UnFitMother. So UnFit called to tell me that her son was born. 7lbs, 7oz. I don't remember what his name was, but I do remember thinking I didn't like the name. Anyhoo, as I was talking to her on my phone and driving to one of my patients houses, she tells me how much she doesn't want the baby. She has been saying this all along, but I figured once she saw him and held him things would change. I was wrong. She already has 2 other boys, 6 and 3, and she is living with her boyfriend. She said she doesn't want to marry him because if she did, they wouldn't be able to get WIC, food stamps and free medical. She tells me she wishes she had enough nerve to put the baby up for adoption because she knows she will never love him. (This comes as a shock to me..how a mother can never love her child) Well, I didn't know what to say. I have my own opinions on the whole situation, but I have learned through the years just to keep my mouth shut. Hopefully, she will choose the right thing, and follow her heart.As far as my health, it sucks. I finally have my glucose levels under control...tight control. So, just when I thought I would be able to go back on fertility drugs, my blood pressure goes bonkers! My BP is very high and I am retaining so much water. The Dr. has me on 4 different diuretics and nothing is helping. She is giving me until Friday to lose some of the water and my blood pressure to go down, or she is admitting me into the hospital. ACK! So, not only do I NOT want to do that, I won't be able to go back on my fertility meds until the blood pressure comes down. Mr TSB and I talked it over and we are going to try 2 more cycles, when we can, and that will be it for us. We will accept the idea we won't be having any children. As hard as that is to accept, that is our reality.
We have checked into adoption and we don't have $25,000.00 sitting around to adopt. Surrogacy is JUST as high. We are planning on looking into foster care after the first of the year, but we still may not get our OWN child out of that. I guess we will sit back and wait to see what God gives us. In the meantime, I am taking donations :)
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